birthday remix!

it was a good day. i still felt sort of maudlin and inappropriate all day but the weed and the wine took the edge off...to a certain extent.

i guess i felt like i put such a good year behind that the future looms forboding ahead...or something.

his feeling comes not only with the advent of a birthday but the knowledge that something you've put a lot of time and effort into is about to draw to a close and there is of course something else you want. there's always something else to want: a person, a project, a plan. shit, i want all of these things right now...it's the end of an era...a year is an era these days.

everything changes so quickly!

i suppose i should blame it on intoxicants: a tightly packed bowl and a couple glasses of delicious wine bring out the magical and maudlin in me.

thank god for birthday hugs and calls from halifax!
xo michelle.