i feel like puking.

seriously, i feel like shit today.

i am tired but that's normal. i keep having these little passes of dizziness and naseaua and then i'll feel ok for 10min. and it'll happen again. i am hungry but want to vomit at the same time.

here's the thing of it though, i HATE throwing up. there are few things i hate more. and it's totally irrational. if i get sick i won't eat for a few days afterwards just to prevent it from happening again...which isn't a good plan because being really hungry makes me feel sick too. all in all it's not good...

so now i am worrying about being sick. i have escape plans for all the things i have to do today.
it's totally irrational.

i remember last saturday night i had been out watching a friend play some music (wow, that was vague) and got SMASHED...by the time i went to bed my tummy was about to exact it's revenge. i lay in bed talking myself out of throwing up for about 2 excrutiating hours. the next morning wasn't fun...but i didn't puke!

i hate fridays when i don't feel well. fridays should be a good day full of happiness for the upcoming weekend.

someone hug me and make me feel better.
pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese.