i forgot what it felt like

tonight was the beginning of a long concert season for yours truly and damn did it start with a bang!

HOT HOT HEAT at red's april 13, 2005

we arrive at the venue- just past 8- rachel, kevin and i and as we walk to the back of the line we check out and are checked out by all the scenesters and pseudo-scenesters already there. as i pass by i hope that my purple eye-liner and black shoes are acceptable. or i don't...but i feel like i should care and so i pretend to...i can tell from the others that they're all thinking the same thing...am i ironic and cool enough tonight?

imagine what it must feel like to enter 'red's entertainment complex'...it's one of those places that has a restuarant, arcade, bowling, pool and, on occasion, concerts. and it's always a weird time. the acoustics suck and the venue is nothing more than a poorly laid out cave but it's the only 1000-ish seat venue in the city so it has to suit...the worst part of this cave is that it's in 'THE MALL'...and the mall is the definition of both gong show and ridiculous excess in edmonton...anyhow, we enter the venue, amdist the swarms of kids who for some of them this is probably their first show. and goddamn do i remember how that felt...

the first band is already playing and sadly i was already bored...louis XIV they're called and yet i feel like i am watching jet...the american version of jet...and i want to vomit. luckily it doesn't last too long and someone else takes care of the vomitting...all over some chick standing two feet away from me. thank christ it wasn't on me.

i'm bored again 20 minutes later by the futureheads who flew all the way from england to play 10 songs and make damn sure they all sound EXACTLY the same.

it's funny because i think i'm spoiled living in edmonton. the bands here are good and they set up quickly and they aren't afraid to give everything they have...not for a moment. i suppose when you have nothing to lose you'll play with your heart...the futureheads apparently have a lot to lose because they don't seem to give a shit or they give too much of a shit but not enough of a shit what the people who paid money to see them think...or some other shit.

then suddenly but without surprise the night is saved. i dance and i sing and sweat from every pore until i am tired, my throat is raw and my ears are ringing...i don't ever want it to end.

that's what it's all about kids!

alice, etc...