this should be...

...fun?

fun!

FUN!

i'm really really really fucking nervous right now.

tonight's our first rehearsal for the fantastic play, GayFace, making it's world premier this summer at theatre network's network's neXtfest (june 1-11) and then the edmonton international fringe festival (aug 17-27).

the thing that is sooo nerve-wracking is that i am directing the thing and it's written by one of the people whose friendships i cherish more than anything in the world. nick is amazing and i don't want anything bad to happen to our relationship.

now, i know we're both professionals and whatever happens in the rehearsal hall isn't going to affect how i feel about him but i'm still worried. what if i'm terrible and he hates what i do to his play and the direction i lead him in as an actor?!

god, that leads me to my other point of freakout: what if i am a terrible fucking director and am just a big fat fraud?

ok, i know this is just pre-show jitters...i just needed to get it out.

there, it's out.

come see the show! both times! it'll be a different show at each festival.

loves you
michelle.